Wednesday, April 04, 2007
i dun think i gave up the fight, it was just impossible. i'm really feeling better now that i noe i have given up my place in the team this yr so that the coach cld take somebody else. i did not want to bluff my coach, or myself anymore, that i might still make it at the end of the day. not knowing, or accepting that i cld not make it, was draining me of a lof of my energy. i'm just so glad that there is finally conclusion. and i'm really really thankful to everyone who has shown their support.
Samuel: thanks for being the brother i always knew u wld be. besides being guailan in class, i'm really grateful for ur sms-es on nites when i was really down, checking that i was really ok and pushing me on. all the time. i'll always love u.
Tobias: this might sound unlikely, ya but thanks for talking me on many nites on MSN, giving me tonnes of support and encouragement along the way.
To my coach, Ramesh Pau Singh, for showing so much faith in me. i'm really sorry i cannot repay this with performances on the pitch for him this season, and that i cannot be fighting out there for the him, for the school. i swear i'll work doubly hard to repay everything he's given me next season. he's been a real good guy, and i think i have learnt a lot more other than soccer from him. a real man. i love him for him.
to all the other guys, like yonghao lilong jerry sua and everyone else, for consoling me and jus being there to talk to when i needed someone to talk to. u guys are really a great bunch of ppl and when i say i love every single one of u i mean it.
and to the team, i'm really sorry i cannot be with them physically in this journey anymore. it's been really wonderful just to part of the whole experience, and i just want them to know i'm right there with them, every game. i really really love my team alot and i just hope that they can go far. i'm really really sad now, but in the end, i hope i can stand tall and be proud of myself, because for every single minute out on the pitch under the sun up till i was down to my last ounce of energy, i have given everything i cld for the team. it feels awful that this journey is painfully cut short for me, but well, the journey never ends. Love Hwa Chong Soccer. Love Hwa Chong Soccer.
_Buckled and Pimped