college is the point of life where we are breaking into adulthood, when we start making decisions that could change our lives forever. now i just feel so confused abt the path of life that i will embark on. i really cannot picture myself working in a corporate world with a 9-to-5 job, or worse stil, a 9-to-midnight kinda job, though i noe i really wld like to be rich. but then again i also feel like i want to lead a life of service. i dun want to be remembered as someone working his life off accumulating wealth and wealth and only wealth, a purpose so superficial, it all disappears come death. maybe that's why i'm no longer motivated these day to study hard, though i noe i really shld be working towards a scholarship but then again that's just condemning me to another 4 years of not knowing wad to do with my life in a university. maybe it's because i noe i truly dun wanna walk down that path, that right now i'm just blindly trying to build up a portfolio worthy of a scholarship.
looking at the ppl from acres ystd, those ppl really noe wad's their purpose in this world. i reckon when they leave this world, they will be rmb for making a difference, for leaving an impact on something somewhere. and not like so many of us just working our way up some corporate ladder and in the process engage in some unnecesary backstabbing politics. that just isnt life for me. the world at its most pristine, is such a wonder, and i dun think i want to turn my back on service to mother nature, be it thru humanitarian works, and all the other stuff in the world which i still dunno i could be doing, for the cold and indifferent corporate world. right now i feel as if my soul is being stifled in the confinements of my body, that i have so many things i wanna do in life which i just cant do, or that it's possible that i may not even fulfil them all my life. and when that notion comes to mind, it always feel sad that i'm still wasting so much time doing things that i really dun wanna be doing given a choice.
just look at me, do i really look like i'm enjoying school now? for now, let's just hope all of us will ease into adulthood by making the right decisions for ourselves when the time comes.
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