Wednesday, March 21, 2007
i've just went for my scan today. the doctor says i'll be out till the end of april. i sort of expected it before i went in, that the doctor will say i'll be sidelined for another 3 to 4 weeks, but i dunno why now, i have no idea how to react. it means i'll miss the ENTIRE season. it means that i will not get to kick a ball wearing the school jersey on a pitch in a national game. it means that i'm as good as nothing in the squad right now.
morale plunigng, sorry if i'm pms in school these days, which i really am.
maybe i shld not have worked that hard in the first place.
maybe i shld not have been talking so much to samuel abt our dreams of miracles this season.
maybe i shld not have put all the extra work i do in trainings and feel myself improving so much just before i got this freak injury.
Maybe. but i know when i did all that i did, it was worth fighting for a dream, a dream which is fallin apart.
i think tonight, in a long long long time, i wld be hugging my blanket so tight it'll rip, and then cry myself to sleep.
_Buckled and Pimped