Friday, November 17, 2006
you know wad? i think i've been fooling myself for the past few years. wad with the thoughts of living up a high life, shoppin everyday, having fun and screwing my years away. maybe thats not wad i really want.
this holiday has really been soccer trng, work and home so far. and maybe the odd movies here and there. the time when i'm alone, travellin home feelin all tired and shit. it made me think a lot. i dun think i want a house full of branded stuff. i think i can live with a closet-ful though. ok, the point is, i'm missing the simple and peaceful times with my family, simply going through the day doin wad i'm supposed to do, slackin arnd. ya, the simple life, not the paris hilton kind, ya but really the down-to-earth kinda thing.
everyday, when i go home, i see this old ppl on the bus, all tired and shagged out, going in and out of sleep. but u know wad, i see happiness in these ppl. esp when they pick up a phone call, or they call back home to check on their families, u can feel the satisfaction they get jus by knowing everyone is back home and together, and food is on the table. maybe thats all i really want, to have a wonderful family, to go home to my kids everyday and know that they are there. i dun need the high life. i dun need the guccis and pradas. all i want is to go home everyday, and still feel that shiver down ur spine when u step home and see your family.
they say growing up sucks. now i understand. the transition from teenage to adulthood really sux. thank god i still have a couple of years before all the shit comes. but right now i really want to scream to simple plan. "i'm jus a fucking kid."
_Buckled and Pimped