the past week just passed in a blurry thing.
everything happened so fast u din noe they happened. it was lyk teachers' day, then hols, then IDP, then it's the wkend n then now........ so fast.
i noe now's the hols, but God bless me, i think i'm so so so screwed. HARD. as in, aiya i dunno.... but it's juz this attitude in me that says "damn, why am i studying so hard for?" ok, well i'm not, for one. i dun frigging have motivation to start! i know i noe my stuff, all i need is to go thru them!
u see, everytime i touch my stuff, they jus repel me. it's juz lyk as if there is a DUNNO-WAD between us that my work n i cannot get together.
the moment i plan to start on work, it's either the TV or the Bed that will distract me. but, erm, lyk i can help it? firstly, i see no purpose in studyin so hard when ultimately, all these stuff are irrelevant iin our lives? secondly, i really carn help not resisting the TV. it's lyk MTV Hits, or some show on HBO or Star Movies, or it's World Cup Qualifier, or it's Who's Line Is It Anyway, or it's Growing Up Wild on Animal Planet! so many things! the moment i start, i carn stop!
finally, if i keep myself away from the TV, the next place i will go is to the Bed, where within 30 seconds, it's "POP!" and i'm sleeping for lyk erm, 3 hrs?
these things juz keep happening for the past few days when i wanted to start work- damn i'm screwed i've got 0 exemptions i expect and i got tonnes of work to cover for the exams i need to die to get another brain for myself- i juz carn concentrate!
ok, i need a change in attitude towards my studies. maybe home isnt exactly a good environment for studying. i dunno, but hell! I NEED TO MUG NOW!
Ok, I’m falling asleep again.