NO1 believes wad i ever say. especially now.
even till now, i only have a couple of mild support for my dreams.
every1 says its a bit far-fetched. i think it is so too. but it would be lyk "hell! this is cool!" kind of feeling if i could ever achieve my dreams.
rite now, i dun see the point in continuing studyin sciences, bio, chem n physics. no offence, i enjoy most of the lessons, but DAMN! i see no relevance of them in my life, as if i'll care abt kinematics, hydrogen bonds n transpirational pull when i grow up. no way! as if i need to bother abt how much light deflects, wad is the Specific Heat Capacity of Zinc, or wad in the world is the spongy mesophyll. lyk HELL NO!
i dun ever see even in my wildest dream the application of these specialist subjects in my life when i dun lyk them n dun do particularly well in them n they are not applicable in my life n neither do they affect me. i mean look, as i've been tellin ppl, now there is space to make mistakes in our tests n all, but in reality, is there?
take for example, i'm into medicine, n i make a mistake, my patients die. if i'm a into biology n eventually becomes a surgeon, i cant afford to slice the heart of my patients considering how careless i am! furthermore, i cannot afford to have calculations error say when i become an architect and then cause thousands of life to be lost when the building i design collapse! i mean look, i noe i wun be one goin into those fields, so wad for do all these crap n waste time?
anyway, my dreams aint anything very glamour glamour kind. i would prefer to go to somewhere lyk AFRICA!!! yes, AFRICA! i dunno when my obsession wif africa started, but now, I love it lyk mad! living in Singapore is hell lot of stress n expectations weighing u down. i think africa is one of the parts of the world that is really left UNTOUCHED. i dun want to be stuck in this society anymore. u see, when u grow up, u work so hard for the cash which will go into payin for the monthly instalments of ur properties n never wld the cash be in ur hands. moreover, u will never be happy, doin just enough to maintain that FLAt of urs. u see, if u din even have the flat, u wun even have the problems that come with it.
now, i already have a very sketchy idea of what i want to do:
between now to the age of 25~26: NS and Studies. perhaps get a good degree somewhere in the glamorous corner of a top University wld be IDeal!
from 26 onwards to 30: SLOG REAL HARD. keep the cash in hand. find a galfren willing to go on ur expedition with u. GENOCIDE! haha.
30~32: set off to africa, juz roamin arnd without any thoughts n plans. juz do what i can to help n probably get a gun as well.
32~45: go to a city probably in New York to settle down n get married with the gal that went on the expedition with me. by then, we shld be deeply in love [:)] get a job n start a family. at the same time go to exotic getaways for spiritual retreats, say MADAGASCAR or PERU? the mountains are nice there :P occasionally fly back to SINGAPORE to visit my family.
45~55: dunno wad to do here.
Retired Days: return to singapore n be minister mentor! LOL! anyway, it is always nice to return HOME, n yes, i want to die peacefully at HOME!
ppl tell me my dreams are too far-fetched, too surreal, yet, hu careS? aint dreams supposed to be lyk that? i want to go AFRICA! but rite now, i'm still at stage 1, n i still need to get my degree.... o yes! i need a back-up plan too :P