Fallen_eMbers

2008-07-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

Hello this place will be left to rot. moving to LJ (LANJIAO JOURNAL) if ever i'm going to blog again @ http://daryljjl.livejournal.com/

that's it.

i can't hear the music!

2008-05-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

the season's almost over after yesterday's game, but mathematically there's no more chance of being that 'legendary batch' we have all been dreaming of for the past 8 montths? it isnt really nice when reality hits after being cocooned in a dream for so long. and when it all ends it felt like everything came crashing down.

strangely enough though i did not feel sad for long. i used to mull over such things for a long time and be sad abt it, but not this time, somehow. i just feel so proud and happy that i am able to go thru one whole unbelievable season with the team. and yes, for the first time, compete for the school. even though i was having flu ystd, it was surprising, even to myself, how i lasted the whole game. im glad i made the choice to push myself to play and there are no regrets. i've given my all ystday and though we lost really badly, there's really nothing to be ashamed about. 1 yr ago, ppl won't even giving a shit abt soccer. nobody talked about qualification, nobody believed and nobody cared. this year, we made ppl sit up and notice us, and even manage to draw supporters to go all the way down to pasir ris to support us. It's just amazing. looking back at where we started from, a team from the street court with 3/4 of the ppl without proper soccer boots in the first trng to today, it's been a long and tiring journey. i hope i never will forget the spirit of this team, for there will never be another, i know. We did not be the legendary batch we wished we could have been, which is a waste, but when our best is not as good as others, all we could really ask for is that we give it a go, our best go. we have each created our own legends in our own way.

as for now, it's down to the last 2 games of the season. only pride left to play for. and after that it's back to being a full-time student. how exciting life can get.

2008-05-02T21:30:00.002+08:00

i just feel like i need to get back to some writing BECAUSE IM HAVING SO MUCH PENT-UP SHIT IN ME I NEED TO GET 'EM OUT!

we drew with ACS(I) 1-1 when we really should have frigging wipe their asses clean off the field but we didnt and we drew and now we put ourselves in a much more difficult position though it is still mathematically possible for some miracle to happen. wad made today worse was that at times it felt like the team spirit was dwindling and the belief was faltering and that is really quite sad esp since all of us have been dreaming of this being the legendary batch since we started off, and now given the chance we have not made the best out of it. im not pissed or wadeva im just feeling a little sad. i so frigging want to do something in my last yr and i will not let it mess up.

coach says he wont see us for the next games because he wld be on course, then sent an SMS "I will c u in the finals. i believe in this team". i just feel so much more... motivated and ready to go. i just hope everyone in the team feels the same way because really WE NEED THE WHOLE TEAM TO DO THIS. I love this team so so so so frigging much and we have proven a lot of that we are no pushovers alr. but i want the finals. i want to be the champion this year.

2008-02-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

this week has been mad, always a rush for time.

but somehow, i just decided to let the week flash past, allowing my work to pile up, having no mood/time to write to my angel and mortal.

In between I got a haircut, took a beep test (hit level 13) and just busied myself with things. soccer team was announced, and that was that really.

today took a ride at the back of the lorry to go to some Toa Payoh Chinese Clan place to move props for dramafeste. it was really nice, to just sit there. i enjoyed the breeze. a good way to end the week, i think.

tmr is a game against NJC. again. kinda excited just now, but not so much now.

i feel like watching cartoons now, like Lion King, American Tail and Pocahontas. Love the soundtracks and have a sudden surge for them. I also feel like doing a jigsaw now. those 999 pieces ones. i feel dead!

2008-01-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

monday blues! i dun really like mondays because the day before was Sunday (I NEED MORE WEEKENDS!) and i feel pissed that my sisters get to start school only at 8.30 on mondays! which means i wake up in the morning and everyone else is asleep. sucks.

But today was good, thanks to the soccer team. it is real it is real we are a frigging band of brothers! it was so fun today scamming our teammates abt them being dropped from the squad now that our coach is starting to drop ppl, and see their devestation. No, i'm not sadistic, i dun wanna see my team mates sad or anything, but their reactions just go to show how much EVERYONE is part of this team, how much everyone wants to be part of this experience and how much we believe. when the time comes it's gonna be hard on those that are dropped, but the fact that today we could play such a big joke on one another and still not get personal abt stuff proves that our bond is strong. i god damn love this team and it's been a long time since i felt so attached to something. i love this feeling of a team, a team chasing a dream together. and i do believe that dreams become realities.

on another hand, arsenal frigging got drawn with man U in the next round of FA CUP! WTF! adebayor pls whack ferdinand's ass.

2008-01-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday's orientation campfire was hell for me, not in the bad way, but the kinda emotional rollercoaster that leaves you feeling like shit.

no, i dun really give a damn abt the emceeing part, though it wld have been a lot better had it not rain. the sound system in the hall totally sucks, and our voices were all so muffled. but it helps that the j1s were so responsive and enthusiastic abt everything. Ares dance was awesome, and i felt so happy doing it, and seeing how proud the j1s were of the faculty. the weeks of practice and the late nights did not go to waste.

then we moved to the central plaza, where the song and dance session took place. for the first time yesterday, i found some meaning in college songs. seeeing how bonded the councillors were at the front leading the song was just overwhelming, the sense of camaraderie was just, chiilling.
it felt like as if i had wasted one whole year in college, being apathetic towards school events, school spirit, but then yesterday i realised that i was just being stupid. I love the school, it's just as simple as that.

this orientation has helped rekindled that flame, and i will not hold back this year to give everything i have to make this yr memorable. i need to find the energy i once had to live my final year in hwachong, much like what i did in sec 4. i'm going to make my own memories this yr.

2007-11-25T12:03:00.001+08:00

woo exactly a month since i've been here. let's just say that the holidays so far has been passing by very quickly, with so much soccer training and all the other random activities filled in between. this past month im feeling more and more drawn to this team everyday, it's almost like the best thing that has happened to me in a long time to feel so belonged to this team, and honestly this team does have a very strong bond. like arsene wenger always say of arsenal, i feel that something special is happening with this team. our team can go far this yr and play as well as any JCs, argh our teacher-in-charge told us that next yr is the 10th anniversary of Hwachong one and only national championsip for soccer. wad a way to cap off my 6 years at HC and celebrate that tenth anniversary by winning it again. wow! makes my heart accelerate every nite before i go to sleep. i dream so much, though it's not too unrealistic a dream :)

scored against ACJC last week from very very far out with a volley from a corner that spilled out! there you have it, a goalscoring centre back. damn i love that feeling when you see the ball dip into the back of the net! and beating ACJC 3-1 just feels so damn sweet!

ONWARDS.

2007-10-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

this week has been spent on catching up, get togethers. council selection camp, HIC, meeting all the high school ppl in the old grps again. after one yr passed, i dunno if things feel different. though many things have changed, but some things dun. well, but we move along.

one thing that i hate abt such get-togethers is that everytime we talk abt something, some event, and go like "OMG that was like 3 months ago", then "6months ago", and so on and on, and when u realise how fast those numbers increase, it becomes really scary. makes me feel old.

im shifting out of my grandma's house tmr. it was only last yr when we shifted in, and now we are shifting out, leaving her along with my grandfather in the house, and my grandfather is usually not at home. which makes me feel bad. the thing abt shifting house is that it is damn tiring, not just physically, but mentally, when u pack ur stuff in boxes, and start flipping through yr books, recollect and look at how things have changed. but speaking to mr ng ystd, i guess he is one of those man that really manages his life so damn well, always looking forward and rejuvanating himself, coming up with new things to recharge his life, find new motivation.

sometimes i wish i cld be like him.

2007-10-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

trng today was quite a hilariously scary thing.

after probably abt 20 mins of warm up and 10 mins of simple work, suddenly many of us just had to drop out of the session, complaining of cough and difficulty in breathing, cold sweat etc, of whom i think i had the worst symptoms. it was quite spooky, to see suddenly almost 10 ppl who were fit just 30 mins ago all getting the same SARS-like symptoms, and i was truly freaked out.

i told louis my last words, which were to let everyone noe that i love them, and auction off all of my underwear with the proceeds going to Hwa CHong student needy fund. to think of it now i am not prepared to die, seeing what my last words were. though in retrospect i wasnt as close to dying as i thought i was, i still thought that i might just collapse anytime. in the end it turned out to be bad weather, hazy conditions, causing irritation to our respiratory systems. wooh, and the doctor visit was spent with the doctor hearing me breath for 2 full mins. just breathing. how romantic i thought, but damn he's a frigging old man bastard lol.

well i think i will spend the rest of my life thinking of better last words, in case next time i think i will just die anytime, i will not have to part with my underwear.

2007-10-16T19:40:00.001+08:00

On cold, rainy nights like this are when I realized the simple blessings of being able to be under a roof with people around. It is also on cold, rainy nights like this that makes me wonder about the world outside of me, of the “I”, of the people having to work in this hell weather and not being able to enjoy the simple joy of having dinner with their families. Of the old people having to collect cardboard boxes despite the rain and wind. Of cleaners having to help clear tables in hawker centers with selfish, impatient bastards screaming behind them and giving them those “don’t-dirty-me” eyes. Of so many things.

And then I feel so blessed. Blessed with being able to have dinner with my family. Blessed with having clothes to keep warm. I dunno why but maybe it’s just me, I keep thinking about the unfortunate and can’t help but feel so insignificant, like there’s always something I want to do, but just dunno how to start, or where to start.
And amidst all those thoughts I shall attempt to finish up my WR.

2007-10-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

this. place. feels. so. dead. much. like. its. owner.

well anyway i did mass dance for the first time since orientation during open house and man i enjoyed it like mad! it's like if u dun stay cynical and moan abt the psuedo-enthusiasm that the mass dance exudes, then it can be quite fun and high. especially when u have so many idiots arnd u as well looking like, well, idiots, it doesnt feel as bad. now i think the next time there is a mass dance session i will gladly take part. it doesnt help to sit on my big fat ass and moan abt college life, does it?

i love dinner getaways, lol, especially if i have to travel 1 hr plus to ECP, which really isnt much of a getaway but still i spent 1 hr plus travelling so it's still considerably a getaway, and get to eat with and talk with the HSC ppl. oh man it's been such a loooooongggggggg time we had those long long dinners and i missed it so much. it makes me feel alive just to talk to them.

soccer trng with coach back breathes new life into me. it's so energetic and happening and it is good to start off ur season's preparation with a good trng session, even the cramps and fitness part at the end did nth to spoil my enjoyment for the session :) im already looking forward to this long long season ahead and i hope i'll be safe from spastic rogue injuries this time. it's really my last chance to represent the school and i'll do anything to keep it real. hoho damn it im going to get one of those muscular toned bodies this holidays!

2007-10-07T11:25:00.000+08:00

argh even after almost finishing one whole year of college, i feel like im still hating it. a lot.

college life makes ppl sad, or lose energy. at least for me, i've realised that i've turned alot more into an introvert. im turning to myself a lot these days, when in the past i was so happy to have pppl arnd me whom i can just talk to almost without any qualms and the fact that they are ALWAYS AROUND me makes it so much easier to get through life. now it's just having random ppl around you and im always not sure who i can talk to and i feel very lifeless unless i keep talking. in fact, it struck me that i have talked, as in heart-to-heart-talk talk, very very little this year. maybe that's why i dun feel alive at alll. the only ones i rmb was probably when sim chun and i went to NLB to do term paper in june and we just went for lunch and talked all the way to dinnertime without doing anything. and i love to just talk. oh and last week with jerry and lilong sitting at the top of the school field. it was probably one of the few times when i felt that college was a nice place.

it also feels strange when the distance between friends starts to get wider... i dunno, like u just say HI and walk past each other. damn weird, like how everyone is so busy moving quickly. i mean, where is everyone rushing to? back in high school even when school ended at 4pm, we see ppl moving slowly, slacking in classrooms going havoc, throwing broomsticks and bottles, kicking ball in class, blasting music and copying homework. that was fun. haha now it's just at class bench seeing ppl walk past and rushing and more rushing.

what a difference year makes.

2007-09-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

after 5 years of its shouting absence, i am falling in love with the piano all over again. gosh i miss sitting there and just playing and playing, though the only song i can remember how to play now is Canon in D. which is still quite awesome because i never get bored of it.

im resolved to play more of the piano this holiday. i mean from now on. rather than wasting time online and indulging in frivolous stufff everyday, piano seems to be a better choice. much better choice.

it's good that promos are over though, it leaves me with a lot of time in my own hands and i am happy that way. it seems like this 2 months will be one of the last playing holidays in a long long long time. 16 months to army. woohoo dun we all just love being so old?

i dun.

2007-09-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

it seems like the impending Promos will be all but a test of memory and common sense. no, i realised i havent put in much effort digesting any of my history and lit readings, and econs is down to bare common sense, i feel. hopefully thats enough to see me through this year. i really wanna give playing water bomb at orientation next year a miss.

0ff to the battle field, valiant soldiers. let's hope there won't be too much casualty in this battle.

ciao.

2007-09-21T10:10:00.000+08:00

mourinho, with only 3 years with chelsea, is the greatest chelsea manager of all times. so much of being a big club. lol

2007-09-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

i dun think i have ever felt so unprepared for a major examinations before. 5 more days to exams and it still feels like i have at least 60% more of my content to cover, and im sure i haven synthesize most of them too. ok save for maths in blocs this yr, i really cant recall feeling this screwed.

i love hwachong, because it seems like its almost like 1 for all, all for 1. school feels like FOS these days, with tonnes of ppl playin soccer at the field as if promos were over. such escapism is unprecedented. and the number of Us that will come our way for the promos, i sense, will be unprecedented too.

till then.

2007-08-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

ar i think i love 4G'06 alot! A picture speaks a thousand words, and below are 4 pictures that speak a few thousand words.

back at our old classroom with Mr Low, Mrs Goh and Mrs Sow.
With Mr Ang. and his Apple.
With Mrs Goh again at the stuff room.
Sadly though, this is all we cld get of our form teacher. lol. a picture speaks a thousand words.

and if anyone of you shld get conjunctivitis from me, sorry in advance! byebye

2007-08-30T10:45:00.001+08:00

staying at home today marked my staying at home for the whole week! no academic periods, nothing. missed 3 tests in all and i rreaally hope i dun have to take a make-up for them when i return to school.

i honestly wanted to go to school today but well my mother insist that my eyes AREN'T OK and that i wld spread it to my whole class so as the good boy i am i just decided to sleep on when i woke up at 6am ready to come to school. very well. in anyway staying at home for 4 days made me feel like i have not missed out much in terms of work, and instead i have so much more time to do what i need to do like revision and that is really impt. Hmph! it is 4 more weeks to end of everything and that is really very fast so im going to give promos a good shot.

i am resolved not to miss school tmr because a lot of teachers will be dancing/ making a fool of themselves and im not prepared to miss that for the world!

2007-08-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

Conjunctivitis lick balls. Big time.

2007-08-26T11:53:00.000+08:00

over the last 2 days i have been having some memorable encounters with fat ppl. on friday evening the soccer guys we were playing street at the SALT CENTRE court when a fat bitch came along and demanded that we left the court because she wants to SKATE. roller-blade. it was fun watching ppl arguing with her and though we eventually left because she said that "HCIS has priority over HC students" (oh yes she is a teacher, surprisingly, from HCIS. a very unreasonable one who is not capable of any form of logical deduction and cognitive coordination). oh well, after that we had fun niao-ing her, which makes me realise the sad state of fat ppl. if ever someone fat gets in your face, that person is just GG. because wadeva they say, you just gotta get back to them being fat and im sure as HC students, we can come up with millions of catch phrases insulting fat ppl.

but ystd, jackson ong proved that fat ppl indeed do have some form of usefulness, er and humour as well. my pw grp was at nlb doing our WR and after that we decided to do some work. dantong wanted to do econs but she needed her SLoman. and mighty jackson ong simply shoved the book under his jacket and walk rite through the security. and it was amazing the way he did it because with a thick book beneath his jacket he still looked incredibly normal, must be the size of his tummy, i suspect.

ok enuff abt fat ppl. im going to miss the next 3 days of school and 2 tests. Conjunctivitis, or sore eyes. it sucks so much because my eyes are all puffed up and swollen and red. there's so much sticky discharge in the eyes it feels like they are on eternal orgasm. when i sleep and wake i can hardly open my eyes because they are stuck together. now 3 days without school in one shot is a bit gay, considering that i had never missed a single day of school this year. and that when i come back on thursday, i probably have to take 3 test that day. raaaaaaaaawrrrrrr GG. i love promos which are only 29 days away!

2007-08-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

this place is so dead rite now im seeing cobwebs forming around already. im feeling happy with life these days because it feels just so carefree. let's see:

soccer trng's been suspended: that means im playing a little more street soccer and having more time to sleep in the afternoons, which is really heavenly!
I'm loving MATHS! OMG! it's the first thing i take out of my bag almost everyday, trying to finish my tutorials. it's been a long time since i felt so much motivation for doing maths. Hong Kong teachers are really awesome maths teacher. (but frigging bad econs lecturers)
my class is so much more bonded now! high school cantenn outings always hits 90% these days. and class bbq on national day eve was damn nice :)
been spending more time with the soccer ppl: it's almost like i had never knew them before, but now im enjoying just going for trngs, physical or ball, and slacking arnd with them.
The EPL season has started! and Arsenal isnt flopping so it's good enjoyment watching soccer. and seeing Man U languishing and Spurs hitting rock bottom.

oh and i had my O'levels oral last wednesday and it was damn lame. they asked me abt the weather, of which I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO OPINIONS ON. i wish they could ask me something like MY FAVOURITE FOOD or PASTIME. that wld have been fun.

life is cruising right now and i have no intentions to lose control rite now. Promos are looming :) im excited!

When Christmas comes to town

2007-08-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

to everyone caught in their work and crazy world, just take 4 minutes off your time to listen to this. It's really worth it.

When Christmas comes to town

2007-08-05T21:58:00.001+08:00

to everyone caught in their work and crazy world, just take 4 minutes off your time to listen to this. It's really worth it.

2007-07-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

the last week just passed really quickly and i had very little sleep, abt all that i cld rmb from last week. of course besides the daily chin-chow/tangyuan/buy ice routine that went on for the RHD food sales thing which, OF COURSE, ares owned in terms of profit. have been spending so much time with fac comm over the last week, doing that and Ares Nite stuff, banner painting, it all became a little reminiscent of council work, just that it is done with a lot less pressure here and i am currently, at least, enjoying my work.

let's see, last week. Track and field. hmm it was just nice to be back, and it was mainly just that.

my grandma just shared with me a real-life story abt the newspaper seller who sit downstairs every day, rain or shine, from the afternoon till late in the night before he calls it a day, selling newspapers to ppl and passing car. and mind you this is a 70 plus yr old man. sometimes i see him carrying the tables out to lay his stall, carrying stacks of newspaper and lay them carefully out for sale. and then he will just sit there for hours, all for $12 a day.

and i just blew over $20 bucks in the afternoon playing pool and Lan and food. it's high time i start controlling my spending. oh and it's week 5 now. promos are looming omg!

2007-07-14T11:09:00.000+08:00

i love friday evenings. like yesterday's. i always look forward to friday evenings. there is no rush to finish anything, no pressure and it just feels so relaxing feeling that way. if only i can feel that way more often.

i love yesterday's soccer match against the seniors. it felt good seeing all of us again together since the season ended and just playing a friendly game and have some fun. and i miss running all around on the field in a proper soccer game with nothing on my mind but just chasing a soccer ball and protecting my goal. and it makes life seemed all so simple and enjoyable! especially after a long and crazy week, i really dunno how i found the energy yesterday to run round the field! it surprises even myself.

i love the bus rides home on a friday evening. those buses without air-cons are nice buses to hop on on a friday evening. i'll just continue my mind-less life and sit next to the window and look at the cars passing by and just feel the wind on my face. what a lovely feeling.

i'm falling in love with friday evenings!

2007-07-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

life's mundanity for me has reached an all-time high. a normal day these days is just me waking up from really deep sleeps staring at the ceiling for a good while, before running through my brain "Week 3, Wednesday. 2 more days to weekend and more sleep." and that cycle just repeats itself everyday. and before i know it 3 weeks of school has almost passed since school opened. how fast time flies.

fac comm has been taking up quite some time for the last week or so with Ares Nite coming up real soon and Racial Harmony Day. All in the next 2 weeks. no naps in the afternoons, means im just struggling to get through each day and i just pray im gonna have enough energy to get me through the term. i think i need some energy put back into life, some sort of spiritual enlightenment.

anyway, i alway have this heart-wrenching feeling when i see the old malay auntie of at the right wing trying against HEAVY ODDS? to clean up the place all the time. almost all the time im at the class bench she wld be there sweeping the place, struggling to speak and asking ppl to help her pick things up from the floor because of her bad back. seeing her limping, probably from some ailment that comes with old age, and her fractured hand in cast doesn't help at all.

i cant help comparing myself with her. when i broke my arm, all that was concerning me was if i cld compete in the gym competition back then, and lying in bed all day with the attention of everyone and getting all the help i needed in chores which probably i cld have done myself. and this poor auntie, having no choice but to be back in school working 7-8 hrs, manual HARDWORK, 6 days a week probably just to earn enuff to put food on the table for her family.

GAH i dunno why everytime i encounter such ppl it's just as if i freeze in time and feel helpless and and. i dunno it's like looking at another world and looking back at mine and then i want to do something for them and dunno wad! and it gets so irritating because all im doing is just ranting here when i really wanna be doing something. well at least im not littering and leaving my stuff all over the class bench and maybe if all of u do that too this auntie might have an easier time :)

2007-07-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

my eyes are literally glued to the TV. just caught the encore of Concert for Diana, which i think now is damn nice especially towards the end where Take That came and rock the stage and P Diddy and Kanye West paid flowing tribute to Princess Diana. Hah, I was just wondering how great sons William and Harry are, doing all these for their mother, and how poignant it must have been for them to go through the whole concert. More so when take that started singing Back For Good like "Want you back for good...". it must have been a tough nite for the princes but ya, it was a good concert.

Live Earth has just been boring so far. nothing memorable but random acts coming along to sing songs which has no relevance to the theme of A CLIMATE IN CRISIS. and i just love the set-up of the stage with elaborate lights and tonnes of energy usage to teach us about conservation. no other irony which is more bitter, esp with this concert having an expected audience of several million. it's easier to trust a barking dog these days than those barking celebs.

Asian Football Cup seems a more interesting programme to watch, like how the Iraq team is actually filled with grieving players who have to mask their misery under football to play in this tournament, according to their coach. and that definitely is a more authentic and genuine concern than Live Earth.

2007-07-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

this post really shld have came yesterday, but well i've been doing some reading, Mitch Albom For One More Day, which i completed in one evening. Now im really enjoying his books and it seems that i can easily draw links from his books to my own life. so i had decided to isolate myself from the TV and computer last night just to spend some time truly digesting the book and trying to recall what i had just read. and last night was an awesome night.

anyway, sabbaticals on my second day was fun. i thoroughly enjoyed it. I think windsurfing was one of the Sabbbaticals where you really get a lot of hands-on and do what you actually signed up to learn, which was good. although the wind was initially really strong and the water real choppy, making balancing a big problem, Almost as if a Rikishi had ran straight into you!, it eventually became easier to surf. well and Me was one of the few that can actually sail out to sea and make a turn and sail back, without swimming back. and it felt really good. my instructor said i was good (I BET HE AINT LYING THERE!) and that i shld return in the future to windsurf again (reminiscent of Tuesdays with Morrie) because he hardly saw anyone coming back to enjoy the sports after they have learnt it. "just 1 or 2 in a hundred at most maybe, that's all that return", in his own words. and before he was telling our group how he won 7 out of 8 races in the World Windsurfing Championship a few years back and won himself US$800 and a surf board. and that pride and joy in his face, it makes you think life can be so simple sometimes.

and i am being all worried and uptight abt my results which, really, GIVEN A CHOICE i wld have not given a hoot abt. and so i got a B for SEA history, and a disappointing E for my Econs Case Study, but to be frank i cld live without worrying abt them. because Love wins, Love always wins, or so Albom says, and i think i buy it.

i will be watching as much of Live Earth tmr as my body wld allow me, for the love of the world i wld see idiots performing and preaching abt the environment when i bet they flew to their venues in a private jet and use as much light as my entire house in just their toilets. and that is abt all the love they can speak abt.

2007-07-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

poof. im in bad physical condition. extremely shagged out after yesterday's napfa and today's windsurfing. i sense it's a prolonged build-up to the torture i'll face upon receiving my block's results, which wld be really awesome. going by my policy of "study-well, do-well", Maths will definitely score no more than 20%, which means that i will be part of a massive 4g reunion for the next term in the maths special class. sounds good to me.

windsurfing, though fun, is not really enjoyable. to begin with my instructor reminds me of Ramosheon (i cant believe i cant spell the name of this legend!), who talks a little too much and is a little bit clown-ish. his years are the size of jackie chan's nose, and his nose is also abt that size too. which makes me feel like im looking at en elf. christmas came too early this yr.

and honestly being good at windsurfing sucks. after falling over many many many times, i started on this spell of proper surfing and went far away from the rest of the group, waving to them an euphoric goodbye when i was moving further. UNTIL I FELL, when i realised i had to swim the distance i sailed back, with the board and sail. it felt as though after 20 mins of swimming i was still at the same spot. and by then i was dead beat man. it's damn stupid really. so i decidede to just hang in there and wait for the waves to wash me ashore. the water is real gross! i swore i saw something like puke with the saliva bubbles and stuff in the water. and that made me sick! those ABANGS and their girlfriends at the beach shld really stop drinking too much and puke into the sea.

and im being left with blisters all over my hand from the board that was damn rough. gosh im so tired now i can only think like paris hilton. but at least im still awake enuff to say that Fabregas is the kind of player that everyone shld be proud of:

"'In 10 days I'll be back training with Arsenal. My team. I'm staying in London. "

not even henry calls arsenal MY TEAM. and this dude at 20 is telling the world his team is arsenal. still proud to be a gunner.

2007-07-03T21:34:00.001+08:00

i was watching concert for princess diana last nite. gah i think i missed the best part of it, how sad. bloody 5 hr concert! i only had the energy to last the first 2 hrs, when the atmosphere was so subdued and the best vocalist was nelly furtado. lily allen was horrible live, and pharrell williams is just plain crap, making ppl scream PEACE when they really dun want to. personal agenda, i say. those idiots in HIP HOP only noe a few words, like PEACE, DOGG kinda crap.

i really shld have stayed up to watch those videos of princess diana's childhood and elton john's performance, which i am watching now on youtube, and is damn nice. ar... childhood is so sweet and blissful. no worries and care in the world, no BLoody BLocs and the Looming Promos. and all the other shit that comes with life.

arsenal have signed DA Silva. he's awesome. 15 goals next season. more than rooney, and the 16.7Million pounds darrent bent. dumb spurs, we got this dude for 7.8 and he's gonna score a goddamn hat trick against you.

and back to diana. PEACE. (i so love hip hop)

The Tonight Show: Jay Leno's post-jail interview with Paris

2007-07-01T11:27:00.001+08:00

a must watch this summer!

2007-06-25T10:25:00.000+08:00

it's less than 3 hrs to the first paper and i dunno wad the hell im doing here. maybe its because i dun wanna look at the notes anymore and that im desparately trying to calm myself. ar listening to classical music is helping. for now.

i was watching OPRAH (again!) and it must be one of the better episodes i watched. they were talking abt the pursuit of happiness and those kinda crap but YA! they're not that crappish really. one of the quotes:

"U dun have to be SUCCESSFUL to be happy; u NEED TO BE SIGNIFICANT to be happy"

Awesome, i say. like how happy those ppl that jus came back from africa must be feeling right now. ar i just feel it is a pity taht while they were out there being SIGNIFICANT to someone else's life, im right here back in singapore mugging my life away. how sad. well, i'm already looking forward to EOY this yr for all the things that wld be coming up but right now i really need to get pass this horrible week ahead.

life is surely exciting!

2007-06-24T16:58:00.001+08:00

well after having the daylight taken out of me ystd from learning abt henry's departure, im feeling a little more objective abt it. Arsenal will never be the same again, just like how the EPL has lost one of its only 2 WORLD CLASS PLAYERS (according to nick foo and wang meng meng). but yea, i'll agree with that. thank you monsieur henry and u will always be missed!

on another note though, let's just say arsenal's fate will be the same as my blocks. HAR! SCREWED? let's hope not. gosh i love the parellels there.

on yet another note, I AM GOING TO SHIFT HOUSE AGAIN IN OCTOBER? 6th time in my 17 years of life. WOOTS!

2007-06-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

somebody tell me, wad can be a bigger shock than this?

when i came home and logged on to soccernet, the first thing i saw was "Henry Signs for Barca".

WTF. all that was rumors, just came through in one report. that's it, it marks the end of an era.

Hey wenger, COME GET ME MAN!

2007-06-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

mugging with HP notes for history certainly is different. to think that i finished international history, when i studied with jerry hong's notes it felt like i havent even sniffed a bit of it. Grr.

Oh then we went shopping for presents, which certainly became high-inducing. no, this time it's no more abt the clothes, clothes and clothes. suddenly, i feel like reading again. starting with shopaholics and baby and then to mitch albion, which is long overdue. man i need to get my hands to those books soon.

oh and when we were at MPH looking for books, we came across a pack of GAMES FOR SEX cards or something, which certainly intruiged me. talking abt intruige, lol i dunno why i started imagine jackson ong (no offence dude!) picking one of the cards which needed him to perform human-manufacturing process in a handstand!

hope that image din catch u off too much. rofl now back to mugging.

2007-06-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

pre-exams jitters ar, lol i think they are coming all too early. last nite b4 i slept i told myself that i wld make the best of this last week, no procrastination, no slacking, just 100% mugging turbo-charged (omg the orientation theme is still stuck in my head wtf!). do-or-die week.

then came this entirely out-of place retarded dream:

It's the first day of blocks and school. I'm in a mess because i havent finished my studying. i went to school, and realised i'm in my uniform shirt, and pyjamas shorts! OMG DENIED ENTRY! and butterflies in stomach and all the shit that follows. and when i finally changed into pants, i realised it's maths test instead of econs, which i was prepared for! and i cld do nth in the entire paper!

talk abt a self-fulfilling prophecy hur, this is it, TOTALLY!

2007-06-16T21:01:00.001+08:00

just for the sake of update.

nth much has been happening besides the usual routine of soccer -> study -> sleep -> talk cock. eh wait, i cant talk cock after sleeping, or maybe i can, i dunno. oh and of course my beloved birthday which means that now i have the unglamorous number of 17 under AGE. I'm ageing fast.

TV has been boring for me, not much soccer to watch. and im not an avid fan of drama serials, english or chinese, so im just stuck with MTV and Oprah Winfrey on mornings when i have no trng. and i must say those are one of the few thought provoking times of my holidays having been living on a zombie diet of the above said routine.

one more week to school open, two more weeks to blocks ending. that's real fast! n i'm looking forward to wakeboarding for my sabbaticals already. screw blocks!

2007-06-14T14:21:00.000+08:00

woah time flies. today will be the last day im living as a 16 yr old. AWESOME! one more yr to those restricted m18 movies :P

but yes! talking abt time, it's almost 3 weeks into holidays and when mugging, time never seems to be on ur side! but i've been a really brave boy trying to confront maths, which has been pretty much of a stranger to me for the last 6 months, head on by myself! wooo! it feels so good clearing the tutorial questions one by one, ticking them away. lalalala i'll still be getting a U for maths though -.-

looking forward to slc anniversary dinner tmr. and now i'll wish myself an early happy birthday! and that shall be the greatest gift of love from myself for the next 365 days. until then, i'll enjoy this last hrs of being 16!

2007-06-10T14:49:00.001+08:00

with 2 weeks of holidays past, let's take stock a little bit here.

mugging turbo-charged? this holidays has brought about unforseen harm to my ears. plugging in my ipod in my ears all the while when i'm mugging certainly is bad for my ears and i am bearing the full wrath of it. but studying w/o it wld mean far worse consequences, like not being able to study at all.

from experience so far everytime i take my earpiece off i wld end up talking a lot a lot and that is definitely not productive. and now i have 2 weeks to crash/bang maths. wish maths was almost as hot as jessica alba; it wld make the entire process of crashing/banging so much more enjoyable.

soccer trng's been a good way to get me up early in the day and awake. when there is trng i wld be down in school by 8 and studying by 12 after lunch and trng. without which i wld only wake at 10 plus and start work at 2pm. i shld keep that up.

SLC anniversary is coming soon and i think we nneeeed to make plans. Fast. and i strongly suggest 15 june simply because it's an awesome date! really, centuries down the road ppl wld be celebrating 15th june like they do for Christmas now. Maybe more.

besides the point, PLANS FOR SLC ANNIVERSARY! it's already the 1oth!

p.s. 124 was spiteful. Full of a baby's venom.
p.p.s. i like that line from Beloved a lot. maybe because they are the only lines i can rmb and they are the first lines of the book.

2007-06-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

How someone can be so awesome as to figure out a cliché without ever having met me still seems to puzzle me. Greatly. Tall, dark and handsome. How can that someone ever foresee the emergence of Me centuries ago? Awww… he has to be one hell of a prophet man!

I’m sorry with such outburst of egocentric comments. I think it’s the mugging. And well, it is good entertainment for u who can be so bored so as to be here to read this J. Speaking of which I’m really quite sick and bored of this blogskin it’s so dead and boring it’s stifling. And I shall seek to emulate that very prophet now by predicting that I wld have a change in blogskin real soon!

Adious.

2007-06-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

i'm awesome!

I know i am,

like how i do have awesome friends!

p.s Don't you agree?

p.p.d You know you do agree.

ok that was damn lame.

but, I NOE I'M AWESOME! Honestly.

2007-05-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

i've just went to the doctor because of some weird stomach pain.not the diarrheao (shit i think i spelt it wrongly) kinda pain, but the gastric kind. just that it is really dumb cause i have 2 dinners and i wake up with the gastric pain.

and it was the first time i went to the doc since 6 feb 2006. more than a yr since. wow! strong boy!

i'll be mugging turbo-charged this hols (ya! omg like i finished econs already *gasps*) and i hope this momentum last me the month at least.

i havent talked to ppl properly in a long time and today felt good talking to a few ppl. GOOD CLASSMATES (ex and present). and i really wanna meet more ppl this hols jus to talk. i love talking.

but i think i'll stop here now. because they say miss universe is a must watch.

2007-05-22T22:06:00.001+08:00

i love my cup at home. it is all black and only has a quote across it that says:

"what would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?"

wow profound. Really.

2007-05-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

history term paper is due this week and i'm planning to finish it this weekend. but i am damn sleepy right now no thanks to watching the FA Cup finals last nite. like most Man U fan now i am feeling damn disappointed, but for very different reasons.

the first ever game at the new wembley is supposed to be a classic showpiece. at least that's wad both managers promised before the game. but i knew that getting sleepy after 15 mins during a FA Cup final never bode well. so super cautious, it became the first time i ever agreed with Shebby Singh, saying that the game was virtually played at walking pace. to be honest i wld think watching an S-league wld have been better time spent than watching some ugly-shit drogba with his antics. really, mohammed noor ali and Precious Idunnohowtospellhissurname wld have provided better entertainment.

on hindsight i really shld have stopped watching after 30 mins, because the experience was so painful, battling my sleepiness, it almost felt like diarrhea. and both have the same cause of pain- too much shit on display.

and then sean poh was right, this year's FA Cup (pronounced as "FAR-KUP") is really befitting of its name. and i shall chiong my history paper now!

2007-05-19T11:42:00.001+08:00

watching the new batch of councillors being invested ystd was definitely a very very heartrending experience, maybe even distressing.

it seems like just not too long ago when i was a sec 1, sitting at the audi waiting to get invested as a Councillor-in-training, and all so recent as i took my council pledge for the last time last year. during those times, sitting down at the audi i was always filled with anticipation, looking forward to the new term with excitement. but yesterday was filled with nostalgia, esp during the 33rd stepping down ceremony. as they sang the college songs. as they looked back at every single event they had organized. as some of them choke back on tears.

at times i had to just close my eyes, and not watch, because i know if i did i wld have ended up in tears myself. high school counci was definitely one place where i always cld find comfort and peace in, sanity even. and looking at the current batch of new councillors taking their pledge definitely felt a little weird.

though probably not as grand as some of the invest that i have went thru, it surely will mean something special to 34th.

and i just think i gotta say this. i still do not regret not running for council. best of luck to 34th.

2007-05-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

I genuinely think that we could not have asked for a better ending to the session than the one we had today- with the long elusive victory with sent the entire team into heaven. ya, so we did not win some gold with honors for syf or national champs, but i really think all of us are champions.

ppl in arts cca always say how happy and proud they are at achieving gold with honors for SYF, or succeeding in this and that compettion. and that they had to work real hard for 4 months, 5 months to get there. and as always, they get their praises from the school. not that they din deserve it. OK....

but look. i really cannot understand why ppl keep saying there's no pride playing for soccer. we started this journey as 25 individuals, almost strangers to many, but ended as ONE team. a journey which started in august last yr. for arts performance grp, they go out there for 15 mins and strut their stuff, things they have practiced for months. routine. and when they win the school is all GOOGOO over them. soccer, every week we go under the sun, 2 battles every week. and so a gold with honors, ppl say those ppl have pia-ed alot, overcome a lot of failures. look at soccer. EVERY SINGLE BALL IS A BATTLE, A CHALLENGE TO GET THERE B4 UR OPPONENT. even when u are down to ur last ounce of energy. and therein lies the beauty of soccer.

i'm not taking away anything from performances grps and their achievements, but really, it's time the school shown some appreciation for a cca like soccer.

Nonetheless, <33 hwachong soccer.

2007-05-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

i really think supporting arsenal has a big effect on my life. esp with a manager like arsene wenger.
like arsenal, i think this year so far has been a real failure and disappointment. sometimes i still ask myself if i really shld be in council. though that wld have been a bloody selfish decision and i can go wallow in self-despisal for the rest of my life. but really it feels like 5 months wasted. anyway check out wad monseuir wenger had to say abt our dismal season:

"'What I am more proud of than anything else is that the club was very solid when we were hit very hard at the beginning of March. Most of the other clubs in Europe would have exploded, but we were very solid.
This group is very solid when they have the back to the wall. Maybe the natural aggressive level is not very high, but when they are pushed they are very strong.
We did our job with great conscientiousness. We missed that flying momentum which you have when you go for a trophy, but we did the job in a convincing way.
'There are a lot of positive ingredients in the team that make me believe - we shut up now, we will have a talk during the summer, work hard in pre-season and come back strong. "

like how i wld want not to look back, and not to complain, and just shut up and move on. no more angst. no more nostalgia. no more wandering aimlessness. and to just focus. to just work my ass off. i dunno wad for, maybe just to get myself thru college so that after NS i can have another 3 yrs of a planned route in uni before i really have to decide wad to do with my life. HA! escapism.

but like arsenal, i'm going to be real proud of myself wadeva happens. and i really need to june break to come soon so that i can really start working and get those A's i yearn to seee in my ISP.

now, arsenal-ism shld really be converted to a religion.

Good Morning Revival!

2007-05-12T21:14:00.001+08:00

they say high school never ends.

how true.

2007-05-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

poof. i'm done with maths. those numbers seriously get me mad. and hopping. the chances of me ever doing well in maths is as high as a spurs player ever making it good. and mind you, THAT IS PRETTY LOW.

and talking abt Spurs, I jus cannot help taking a swipe at those cunts at manchester united. and chelski. HA! both are now out of the champions league, and i particularly love how both the teams' managers came out blaming everybody but themselves. here's it from Old Fergy:

"'We play in a very tough league and we have been using the same players with no respite for quite a while now. The Premier League have made an unfair decision against us by making us play Manchester City on Saturday. The TV people were happy for the game to be played on Sunday morning but the Premier League wanted to maintain the integrity of the competition. You can work out what integrity means. They are the ones who made Tottenham play Chelsea one-and-a-half days after a UEFA Cup tie"

Surprising how he could say all those, esp FOR CHELSEA jus a day after calling Mourinho a "man with no principles". There, i love all this catfights I-hate-u-now-but-love-u-tmr kinda thing. esp from knights like SIR alex himself. and to think no1 thought anything of arsenal playin 3 games in 8 days, or 4 games in 10 days, all with 8 senior players out earlier in the season. uh huh.

so now, Here's to all Man U fans, for a little respite and tonnes of marijuana: beat man city. like how joey barton loves to whack up his own teammates.

i'm off to studying history now. and history tells me Liverpool will beat AC Milan. HOHOHOHO.

2007-05-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

i finally got an idea of what retail therapy wld be like for grandmas today. and it nearly cost me my dinner. literally.

my grandma just came home from an afternoon of shopping, and grandmas idea of shopping is toally different from ours. firstly, they DUN shop for themselves, but for others. sceondly, they want to gain on those little freebies that people give out to con them that in the end they dunno that they are the ones that lose out. SERIOUSLY.

my grandma came home with bags of.... chinese medicinal stuff. many bags of chinese medicinal stufff. -.- GG, i tot. and indeed, GG! it was almost like christmas, where there is something for everyone. so she showing us all sorts of funny herbs, most of which were for women. and i prayed and prayed, while happily eating my ice cream, that there was nothing for me. she saved the best for the end. she took out this slimey jelly in funny liquid thing and said it was for me, that i always had cough and that it would help me big time. at that point of time i almost dropped my ice cream and the thought that the concoction would soon run down my throat almost saw me puking. and she said she did not want to buy at first but because if she bought half a dozen bottles she would have one free. i mean! in the end u're the one that lose out. Chinatown is full of grandmas-preying conman! but well, my grandma had good intentions so i could not display any form of unhappiness or dismay. i guess i just gotta gulp down those stuff.

and pray my grandma never goes shopping again.

Kubb - Grow

2007-04-29T15:15:00.001+08:00

i dunno how old this song is.. but it's the best song i've heard this year.

easily. it's worth 4 mins of your time. and the video is wonderful.

2007-04-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

i've been spending quite a bit of time looking thru my photo albums and videos from high school, esp those of last yr. come to think of it, i have not much regrets over the way i spent my time at high school, esp the last yr. to be honest i'm quite proud that i did not let anything pass me by in sec 4, and that i fought to forge memories that i will rmb of my school life.

u noe doing High school musical dance in front of the school felt lame, but the fact that in the end almost half the class wanted to do the dance together, wow! a dance which is featured only on disney channel, and we have so many sec 4s wanting to perform it in front of the school, that really meant something.

and the HIC play Hips don't lie. from the planning and trying so hard just to get everyone interested, even 2 weeks from the event w/o a script, how louis wld call dominic and scream. how ben poh will come late for rehearsals. how simchun will try so hard, working late into nights choreographing the dance, which was not taped down OMG!, and even the post-event celebrations (the fat bitch at BK). i still have the video of our first 3 scenes, kwan's Slim-impersonation, simchun's JAY CHOU thing, and louis and his cane. somehow the whole HP looked so united then. i'm not sure abt now.

then soccer. the euphoria from beating RI, the running on the the field when we scored the winning penalty and huggin of yao lei (!!!!) too bad those media tech guy didnt give us our pic after taking for us our team pic. and all the celebrations pic.

and of course, council. the times when i was still at the front leading cheers, the chill that always ran down my spine. grad nite. indian dance.

these things of last year, i will rmb. now, wad of college will i?

2007-04-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

hahaha i'm getting queer. it seeems like these days i have taken a liking to something weird. everytime when i get into lecture venues and wait for ppl to settle down, i get this sudden high of wanting the lecturer to scream into the mike. i dunno why too. when everyone is so noisy, i'll just start laughin looking at the helpless faces of the lecturers. this is real bad, but i'll really love it when one day a teacher screams into the mike. i'll still be smiling then. finding humor, says ms heng, makes us active lifelong learners. i cant agrree more. bye.

2007-04-21T12:22:00.000+08:00

college is the point of life where we are breaking into adulthood, when we start making decisions that could change our lives forever. now i just feel so confused abt the path of life that i will embark on. i really cannot picture myself working in a corporate world with a 9-to-5 job, or worse stil, a 9-to-midnight kinda job, though i noe i really wld like to be rich. but then again i also feel like i want to lead a life of service. i dun want to be remembered as someone working his life off accumulating wealth and wealth and only wealth, a purpose so superficial, it all disappears come death. maybe that's why i'm no longer motivated these day to study hard, though i noe i really shld be working towards a scholarship but then again that's just condemning me to another 4 years of not knowing wad to do with my life in a university. maybe it's because i noe i truly dun wanna walk down that path, that right now i'm just blindly trying to build up a portfolio worthy of a scholarship.

looking at the ppl from acres ystd, those ppl really noe wad's their purpose in this world. i reckon when they leave this world, they will be rmb for making a difference, for leaving an impact on something somewhere. and not like so many of us just working our way up some corporate ladder and in the process engage in some unnecesary backstabbing politics. that just isnt life for me. the world at its most pristine, is such a wonder, and i dun think i want to turn my back on service to mother nature, be it thru humanitarian works, and all the other stuff in the world which i still dunno i could be doing, for the cold and indifferent corporate world. right now i feel as if my soul is being stifled in the confinements of my body, that i have so many things i wanna do in life which i just cant do, or that it's possible that i may not even fulfil them all my life. and when that notion comes to mind, it always feel sad that i'm still wasting so much time doing things that i really dun wanna be doing given a choice.

just look at me, do i really look like i'm enjoying school now? for now, let's just hope all of us will ease into adulthood by making the right decisions for ourselves when the time comes.

2007-04-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

the thing abt religion and God is always so confusing. for one i'm not atheist. there have been times in my life when i felt so low i really felt that i needed a faith, a belief to help me pull through and not end up in the same situation again. to help be more altruistic and look at life as a temporal assignment from God, a test of character. Since i was young it's been instilled in me that out there there is a greater being, a wonder that helps explain the miracles of the world, which thru science jus cannot be explained. and all these been stirred up again after reading last week's issue of newsweek. of which there is a particular quote i agree with a lot:

"God is not known, he is not understood; he is used- sometimes as a meat-purveyor, sometimes as moral support, sometimes as a friend, sometimes as an object of love. If he proves himself useful, the religious consciousness ask no more than that. Does God really exist, How does he exist? what is he? are so many irrelevant questions. NOt GOd, but life, more life, a larger, richer, more satisfying love, is, in the last analysis, the end of religion."

to be true i think i believe in God's existnce, or at least i want to. it helps give answers to questions u noe u will never find an answer to, until u accept God's existence. It's like why are u doing all teh things u do when u noe u'll end up dying nonetheless? Life is almost like a long queue to die. but they say God has a purpose for us all. And so i will do fulfilling stuff in my lifetime before i regret doing nothing with my life.

2007-04-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

today was supposed to be a day dedicated, TOTALLY, to studying maths. but well, seeing how i accumulated so little sleeep over the week, no thanks to VBC, that goal was not met. i decided to head down to my vacant novena house to slack and RE-MEMORY (ya lit test tmr sux) while my parents did groccery shopping. jus going back in there felt so good, feeling the wind blow in my face like how it used to, and pretending as if i was still living there. going into my old room, lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, sitting at the sofa in the living room and just looking out of the window. nothing in mind because it wld be really sad if there was any. these days i rather not have anything to think abt and then to think abt the sad state of my life. it makes me much happier, or at least, not any more sadder. i now would rather just enjoy the company of the rain, though it hasnt come today, or the comfort of sleep. how time pass. i'm losing the kid in me.
if only they have life injection, i'll go for ten now.

2007-04-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

the emptiness of not having something to look forward to in school is gripping me like a monster in a nightmare, a nightmare u cant wake up from. everyone is talking abt how busy their school life is starting to get, what with their nationals, some council, some both and projects and this and that. haha sometimes i'm just glad that matthew lai has no cca, so that at least i am guaranteed one guy to talk to at the class bench if i lagged around. u see, he is so lazy and carefree that the only thing he cares abt is the weather and his sleep. so just looking at the clouds roll past as everyone goes along their tasks really does help pass time. ppl wish that they were in my situation, but really, am i really in a blessed state? i wish i had something to look forward to.

today the team went over to greg's place to visit him. everyone just sqeezing into his living room was nice. it was warm and very family. it's been a long time since i felt that belonged to a part of something, and this was one of the best times i have spent with the soccer team. as in a full team without its cliques. it's really nice when everyone jus sits down and joke harmlessly abt each other and just have fun. and of course loads of food. jus like brothers in a big big family.

greg gave a talk after that. it was really poignant, hearing from ur captain who has given so much to the team, to make it what it is today. now i jus wanna help re-live his spirit on the pitch. and hopefully fulfil a dream, a shared dream, that one day hwachong cld go further than the grp stages in soccer. and i've decided that i wld wear "5" for my jersey next yr.

grant this man a speedy recovery.

2007-04-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

by now the news that hwachong had somehow miraculously lost 1-0 to VJC, and miraculously because we really shld have came out with something, i'm sure we are making heads turn in the local soccer scene this season. no longer pushovers, we are now heard and noticed.

but today i want to pay tribute to our captain, greg. 30 mins or so into the match he was down injured, and the first thing our coach did after attending to him was to turn to the bench and ask us to call for an ambulance, while we watch our captain, fallen but definitely not out, almost immobilized on the pitch. i tot it was a head injury. but equally as bad, he broke his hand at 2 parts. 2 fractures. and there and then i just felt really sad for him. i never seen him cry in anguish like they way he did today. but wad i really admired abt him was that despite all the pain he was in, the only thing on his mind was the team. and only the team. cheering and spurring the guys on. he appeared strong, and i really really hope he is, for i wasn't. and looking at my captain's strength really, he's an inspiration.

i rmb last yr when i conducted leadership sabbac with clarinda chioh, she always said that the mark of a true leader, is when he is not around his team can still function, as good, if not better than if he was around. i'm just so glad that even after he left for the hospital, our team did not crumble, and fight on right to the final whistle. really, today, more than any other day, i feel proud to be part of HwaChong Soccer team. Pushovers no more, the season looms ahead.

WE CAN DO IT.

2007-04-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: this post is not gonna be savoury.

but whatever. tmr is the big day. the day we've all worked so hard for. it's THE DAY. the rest of the season all depends on tmr. VJC here we come. i'm already super worked up for tmr, though i noe my role would only be restricted to the sidelines. if i were playing tmr, poof! i'd have been sleepless for nites. i'm goddamn ready for war. to screw some VJ asses. to kill. to slaughter. i know i was never going to be amiable on a soccer field, especially if i'm this fired up against arrogant bastards. thank god i aint in water polo playing against AC. i swear i wld have drown 10 guys in the pool. or pluck 10 nuts to feed those monkeys in zoo. but tmr, i'm sure whoever is going out there, will give his all. to kill VJ. to put them back where they belong. not at the top.

let's just fucking do this. VJ IS GOING DOWN.

2007-04-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

i'm a big lazy guy. i realized that most days now i sleep for an average of 10-12 hrs a day, even more during the weekends. any chance to come home early on school days i almost would take it. much like how a pelican would pounce on the pigeons. if i do not stay back to train/slack i would usually be home by 4 plus, sleep till 7, wake up for dinner, do/pretend to do some work and then go off to sleep again at 10 plus. admittedly i am waiting for some kind of nirvana to make its way into my body during its state of inertia so that decades down the road someone cld do a paper on me for their GROUNDBREAKING project work.

well, weekends are worse. i go to school to watch the guys train, come home at 3, sleep till 7 and i wld have slept at 10 if not for arsenal's game. and i just realized today that it's been exactly 100 days since council dinner'06, THE nite to rmb. that just shows the extent of my boredom, counting random days and i dunno how i just discovered that. ya, JUST LIKE THAT. like sitting under an apple tree and discovering gravity. ouch. but i actually wld have preferred being in a bath tub and discovering displacement instead, much more comfortable.

oh, linkin park new single. disappointing.. it's SOOO BORING... listening to it is strikingly familiar to sitting in one of those econs lecture. ZZzzzz.

2007-04-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

i dun think i gave up the fight, it was just impossible. i'm really feeling better now that i noe i have given up my place in the team this yr so that the coach cld take somebody else. i did not want to bluff my coach, or myself anymore, that i might still make it at the end of the day. not knowing, or accepting that i cld not make it, was draining me of a lof of my energy. i'm just so glad that there is finally conclusion. and i'm really really thankful to everyone who has shown their support.

Samuel: thanks for being the brother i always knew u wld be. besides being guailan in class, i'm really grateful for ur sms-es on nites when i was really down, checking that i was really ok and pushing me on. all the time. i'll always love u.

Tobias: this might sound unlikely, ya but thanks for talking me on many nites on MSN, giving me tonnes of support and encouragement along the way.

To my coach, Ramesh Pau Singh, for showing so much faith in me. i'm really sorry i cannot repay this with performances on the pitch for him this season, and that i cannot be fighting out there for the him, for the school. i swear i'll work doubly hard to repay everything he's given me next season. he's been a real good guy, and i think i have learnt a lot more other than soccer from him. a real man. i love him for him.

to all the other guys, like yonghao lilong jerry sua and everyone else, for consoling me and jus being there to talk to when i needed someone to talk to. u guys are really a great bunch of ppl and when i say i love every single one of u i mean it.

and to the team, i'm really sorry i cannot be with them physically in this journey anymore. it's been really wonderful just to part of the whole experience, and i just want them to know i'm right there with them, every game. i really really love my team alot and i just hope that they can go far. i'm really really sad now, but in the end, i hope i can stand tall and be proud of myself, because for every single minute out on the pitch under the sun up till i was down to my last ounce of energy, i have given everything i cld for the team. it feels awful that this journey is painfully cut short for me, but well, the journey never ends. Love Hwa Chong Soccer. Love Hwa Chong Soccer.

2007-04-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

i've always had this inexplicable feeling whenever i listen to chinese songs. it's not often that i do, but when i do, i go on a week-long vacation from english songs, listening to the same chinese songs over and over again. i dunno how, and i dunno why, but chinese songs always seem to give me feelings that are so much more intense than english songs. it's almost miraculous that i'm saying this, but sometimes listening to chinese artiste jus feels so right. maybe it's because i listen to them so little, everytime i listen to a particular chinese song, i'm able to connect immediately to the feelings i felt when i first listened to that song.

i rmb sun yanzi's FENG ZHENG album, released when i was p6. everyday after school i wld jus camp by the radio and loop the CD over and over again. now when i listen to it, it really brings me all the way back to my p6 soccer days.

today i went back to my house at novena. it's now empty, with the rental lease having expired ystd and my family finally selling it after a turbulent year financially. going back there looking at my bedroom, now empty, felt really nostalgic. i stirred when i went in there. i rmb the good times, living a life so carefree. i really really wished i cld do everything i used to do, but the past yr really showed me how much everything else at home means to me. it used to be nothing much going on at home when i was at novena. going back home meant heading straight to my rm, doing my own things, leaving only to get water and snacks. it was just me, and then 4 other ppl living in the same house. i use to take a lot a lot of things for granted. sometimes i feel like i wanna go back to my old ways of living, but i tell myself it's all in the past, my life of a pampered son who has a dad with a high-flying career. going back to my house at novena felt like visiting my own heart, now empty and devoid of feelings, jus spaces waiting to be filled again, waiting for someone to walk into my life.

2007-03-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

i thoroughly enjoyed myself at the council campaign session today, particularly that of Li Cheng Yuan. The fact that he HAD TO add his contact number in his powerpoint (so that ppl can call him to find out more abt him) was just plain amusing. how he actually is so naturally funny is Godly, unprecedented, i can safely say there wld be no1 like him prowling the space of the Earth anytime soon. but wad was really good was that he added in the dictionary definition of WELFARE. maybe he shld have added the meaning of CAMPAIGN as well, because really ****N (think ET, think MARS) thinks that campaigning is supposed to be a confession session, a conselling session, ya whatever. i cant believe that there would be people who cld start off their campaign speech by saying "I'm not here to ask you to vote for me" kinda thing. a little ironic ar?

and then there was a plea from COWS OF ARES, which came across really like something u wld see on tv in the news for the YELLOW RIBBON PROJECT! "give this ex-noob a chance to shine!" i'm sorry, mr pang urged us to vote "wisely for the next batch of student leaders to lead you in school activities". not that that referred to a certain species of human who has weird sexual tendencies to MOLEST(ER) ppl... hmm... i thank god my ear drums didnt burst from his singing, if u even call that singing. ronald mcdonalds, the REAL happy meal man, would have done better at that, though we all wld like to believe that he is a satanic freak who looks like he wld prance on u anytime.

well, i think i'm off to New Jersey to find my cousin. oh wait, she doesnt exists. i'm sorry this is a really pointless post.

Stefanie Sun Yan Zi - Ni Guang

2007-03-29T20:31:00.001+08:00

awesome!

2007-03-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

the school environment is being spiced up by the numerous campaign gimmicks that many of the people running for council have put up. most noticibly, the infiltration of a weird species of alien before unseen in the face of Earth has emerged with a simple campaign tag phrase- vote ****n [go figure, and the word aint alien]. today i really pity nicholas oh's class, not sure wad is it though, some s7 class. they have to endure facing a poster of this form of distortion facing them everyday at the class bench for the next few days. poor them. hope their eyes get through fine and they get to keep their meals in the stomach instead of puking them all out.

now i dunno why i jus feel obliged to do some campaign work for my fellow classmate LI CHENG YUAN. i'm not sure if he has done any active campaigning, if at all but YES PPL PLS VOTE FOR LI CHENG YUAN. he is honestly a wonderful guy, and i'm being SERIOUS HERE. i jus think that he wld make a really "constructive opposition" in council and he will really really be a good councillor. ya so save a vote for this man.

oh and we just got our sexy sexy jerseys today they look so nice i jus keep gazing at them and drool and drool. i cant wait to put them on on the field!

meanwhile, as shawn zhang urges ALL of you to VOTE RIGHT... hmm (i sense some self-fragging here) ok i shant say anymore. with ONE GOAL, ONE PASSION, i might jus wanna urge u to VOTE(RED).

2007-03-25T11:58:00.000+08:00

gosh. i didn't know that "upgrading your template" will means that a "-" in ur URL would not be allowed. ya so.... it's now ggjoe. no wonder i cldnt visit so many other ppl's blog because they have the "-" thing as well.

anyway, england is getting real borringgg.... Zzzzz... watching them play brings pain thank goodness i always get it right when i do not wake up to watch late night matches, it's just always something that says no point. ok, maybe i should admit it's not instinct- it's just england. ya, so i have missed all their internationals in the last 6 months. but, poof! they shld have blown israel away anytime. i can't believe with so many EPL stars earning obscene amount of cash weekly, enough to buy the wet market at ghim moh ten times over weekly and spare those poor, old ah mas their agony, they cant find a single player to put the ball in the back of the net. i think they're missing beckham.

2007-03-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

i think i'm feeling much better today.

i just wanna say thank you to everyone who has showed concern over the last few days :) all your encouragement really really helped me alot.

i went for trng today in a lousy mood, thinking that i WANTED to watch from the sidelines again. but after samuel and a few others spoke to me, i just changed out immediately, borrowing boots from some high school guy and joined in the trng. and damn it felt good. this time i shall remain this positive, and fight for the chance to play again. i'm risking everything, i'm putting everything on the line. i just hope things work out.

2007-03-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm a wreck right now.

i thought i was strong enough today to tell my coach, to inform or update him about my situation. the doc said 6 weeks, but i told him 3. he just gave me a smile and said he probably cannot register me anymore. i noe it's fair, and i shld have been prepared. and i tot i was. but i just smiled and walk away. the whole training i was just sitting and watching, occasionally running to ease my guilt of not doing much. and all those runs werent easy at all- they were painful.

after trng the guys were taking a team photo. i think everyone was having fun, a good time laughin and clowning around. except me. i jus looked on as the sky darkened and the lightning flash. while everyone was so happy, i just wished the session wld end quickly so i cld leave. so i cld have some time on my own. right after the pohtotaking i rushed off with my bags to the toilet. when i hit the showers i just held on to the tap. i just let the water down on me. and then i cried. i cldnt help it. i just cldnt anymore. all that with the smiley face in school today, i just cldnt keep up with that anymore. in the cubicle where no1 cld see, i cried silently. for all that i've given in the last 6 months- my holidays and even my schooldays, when i reached home at 9pm on trng days- they all came to nothing. and it burns me every night. i really dunno wad else i can do. i'm losing faith. losing hope. it's almost like my sec 1 gym days, when i made a promise with tai boon to stand at the podium, as champions, in the c div competition. i was close, for a year. but only he made it. even till last yr, i wld wake up in the middle of the night and feel sad abt it. i really, really dun want soccer to end up like this.

when i hear how tobias talk abt talk him being proud n happy even if he doesnt win a first team spot after giving his all, i dunno. at least he has the hope. and i swear i'll give everything, anything, just for a chance to put on the jersey with the school crest, and step out there on the field to fight for glory.

but right now, i'm fucking beaten. i'm sorry.

2007-03-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

i've just went for my scan today. the doctor says i'll be out till the end of april. i sort of expected it before i went in, that the doctor will say i'll be sidelined for another 3 to 4 weeks, but i dunno why now, i have no idea how to react. it means i'll miss the ENTIRE season. it means that i will not get to kick a ball wearing the school jersey on a pitch in a national game. it means that i'm as good as nothing in the squad right now.

morale plunigng, sorry if i'm pms in school these days, which i really am.

maybe i shld not have worked that hard in the first place.
maybe i shld not have been talking so much to samuel abt our dreams of miracles this season.
maybe i shld not have put all the extra work i do in trainings and feel myself improving so much just before i got this freak injury.

Maybe. but i know when i did all that i did, it was worth fighting for a dream, a dream which is fallin apart.

i think tonight, in a long long long time, i wld be hugging my blanket so tight it'll rip, and then cry myself to sleep.

2007-03-18T16:49:00.000+08:00

it's getting too hot for my liking. and by that i was NOT referring to the body of some supermodel or Queen Latifahs alike, but i was referring to the weather. it's been this way for the past few days and i think it wld stay the same for the next few.

check out this report, it says this yr wld be hottest ever recorded since civilisation started to record temperature. and it's only march. the hottest part of the year, june, still beckons and i dunno how i'm gonna survive that.
http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2007/01/04/warmestyear_pla.html?category=earth&guid=20070104104500

hot weather pisses me off. it freezes my brain and makes me feel easily agitated. (the above are not symptoms of some respiratory ailment.) i dun feel like eating everytime mealtimes arrive because it only makes me feel warmer after eating! unless i can survive on a diet of ice cream, which i cant because i am NOT exercising and am just putting food into my mouth for fun. HUR! damn i'm growing fat. i wish they had cold soups u noe. i love to drink soup so much i really cant bear taking less but i realised these days after drinking soup, i'm all sweaty like as if i was chasing after a rocket.

oh and if the weather gets this hot when the soccer season kicks off, i really really hope all the fitnesss work that we have been doing will see us through.

let the el nino see u off.

2007-03-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

this is going to be interesting. they say england's been missing a set-piece specialist after beckham's dropping. but CHECK IT OUT! paul robinson is the guy to replace him, i say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PFmFnSPqGI

that's the proof, if u have ur doubts. have a good laugh. ben foster, the future MAN U keeper with a wonderful blooper. high in contention for blooper of the season after PEPE REINA unforgettable flop at Everton earlier this season. both gave me a good laugh. and anyway, i always said MAN U is crap without ronaldo. there's one ben foster who will lead the demise of MAN U.

Good day.

2007-03-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

a quick update on my injury: it's healing well :D yay less pain and less pain and less pain means good healing rite.. besides the occasional beast (louis, ok this part supposed to have the strikethrough in the name but i forgot how to do that -.-) and human being that comes along and give me a "test hit", resulting in some crazy sharp pain, i guess i feel quite normal with my rite hand. here's a way of thinking which i have come up with to console myself (and also a chance to show off that i'm an A* bio student).

the graph for the recovery of bone is supposed to be EXPONENTIAL. that means that it heals with increasing speed, which means that if i get pass this week already, it wld be real soon before i'm out hopping arnd again! yay i really cannot wait to get back in action. lying on bed all day reading Beloved drives me mad! MAD! MAD!

ok, anyway the new F1 season starting tmr! hahaha i dunno why but i feel quite excited, not that i'm a big fan or anything, but ya! i think i like to watch the races.

WATCH ME RACE AGAINST TIME AND BEAT THIS INJURY! I'LL BE BACK.

2007-03-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

nothing is as depressing as sitting by the sidelines watching your teammates train and u are not part of it. it is seriously damn sad to just watch. the only thing i can do now is cycle, which is, shall i say as boring as talking to lester? ya almost there, u get my point.

oh. and the pain around my shoulders is killing me! it's like a sudden reaction jerk can leave me screaming like crazy. and i need to learn how to do the daily things we do with my left hand now. brushing my teeth (try doing that!), bathing with my left hand, washing my face, wiping my AS* (that's the most difficult shit to do!) and everything la! i suddenly despise ppl for being bias against left handers. Sim chun, i feel ur pains now as a left hander! door knobs are placed away from the left hand, and today when i went cycling at SALT center, the seat of the machine needed adjustment and guess what? the ledge was on the right side -.- discrimination against the lefties shld have been abolished long ago. and they say we're in the 21st century hur?

walao walao why is it always during the holiday intensive trng that i break bones! damn it damn it damn it! GGGgggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

2007-03-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

life is exciting, aint it? just when your team is starting to play and fight for each other, like the way we did yesterday against balestier khalsa, fate deals you a bad hand. AGAIN, i think to myself. this isnt an emo post, but i'm just feeeling so resigned, siao4 ku1 bu4 de2. it was like another sliding challenge, another perfect sliding challenge, and there my collar bone is broken. actually i should have expected this when i felt the impact, but i still decided to go watch huang cheng. ok, not the point here that i went for a scan one day later. i mean, considering that when i tackled the ball i was in full sprint with the other guy, and the other guy is probably 70 kg? and when i slid in he flew in the air and his knee landed on my collar bone? ya do some physics wad f=ma [omg i can still rmb!] and i shld have figured out that the impact is large enough to break the bone of a skinny little boy. oh boy oh boy.

now i'll be out for month? and the nationals is like in a month? damn it man! my fitness i'll have to start from 0 when i recover and i need to fight for my place all over again. like wtf, where's the fairness man? whatever our team is still a team and i'm starting to feel like it's a family. i love the team so much maybe thats why ystd when i was in so much pain it didnt feel like anything.

God if there's anything u can do for this lowly mortal, PLS let him heal fast. please.

2007-03-10T09:38:00.000+08:00

i think i've learnt some lessons from our CT in school. as such, i'll blog in fictional terms.

once upon a time there was a school on a tiny island nation. an elite institution, they call it. well, strangely, the school seems to have a principal that speaks German. outsiders or freshmen always seemed to have difficulty in understanding him speak, and always can't help but start giggling when he broke out in random languages like tamil in the middle of his speech. this school is also renowned in producing top scholars, many of which goes on to become world-class espionage. (James Bond was rumored to have attended the school.) i mean, come on, the students are forced to decipher secret codes embedded in the principal's speech, after 2 years they are definitely well-trained to be the next 007.

the above paragraph is purely fictional. any reference to real life characters or incidences are entirely coincidental.

2007-03-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

a couple of century ago, abraham lincoln liberated the slaves in america. hundreds of years later, i liberated myself from the aimless-ness of college life today.

maybe it's because i finally found a focus in soccer, with the nationals coming and everyone finally coming together as a team. training today was one of the best ever- the feeling after it and during it was just crazy. perhaps it was because of the pep talk our coach, RAMESH PAU SINGH, gave us on monday. it was so striking that the after effects of it was felt today in training. tremors was reported to have been felt at the central plaza and the left and right wing of hwachong, just like how the indonesia earthquake did to many places in singapore. ok, but that aside, it's been a long time since i have come out of a super tiring trng feeling damn happy. so farr this yr it's just been tough trng and chiong home to ZZzzz... but today after trng i just felt even more energetic it helps me to focus on my work today and i jus finished my ILP today! as in properly, ya! sec 1 gym was the last time i felt this way.

oh man. i really love the soccer team and Ramesh Pau Singh is jus so lovable he tells us he believes in us so much that even his colleagues laugh at him after we lost all our friendlies, he still stand by us and feel that we can go far. walao walao! i love soccer! FTW!

2007-03-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

i think school shld jus close this week. i'm jus waking up every morning feeling super tired with no motivation to come to school. it's like today, i dunno why when i woke up, the thought that i am super tired came straight into mind even i really wasnt... i'm like a walking zombie in school these days.

and again, like today, one of the few days i have had the time to return home early at arnd 4 plus to catch a nap. i jus slept and slept till close to 7 when i had to wake up for dinner. but it's crazy, the more i sleep, the more tired i feel. GGxx. not that we are going to do much when we go to school this week. Mr ang shld just declare school closed for this term.

oh well.. good luck to those that have submitted their appeal to wherever they wanna go. but it seems like a lot of ppl did not get posted back to hwachong. looking at the results board, it was like one in 4 got in? i dunno but ya hopefully everyone ends up in their school.

maybe one motivation for this week is to see if there's any new addition to my class.. oh gosh i'm damn sleepy already.

2007-03-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

so while the asian stock market has been plunging over the last few days (i READ the papers!), mr ang's popularity stock has soared uncontrollably to record high after his announcement that monday would be a holiday. HA! probably if he decides to hold his own private concert next saturday, ppl wld pon huang cheng just to watch him sing.

now, i really wld considering how bored i am in school these days. the weather hasnt been nice to us and it's been raining like mad over the last few days, which means no trng! and we'll be having a friendly later today w/o touching the ball for 4 days? speaking of which i havent cut my fingernails! it's really long now, just like Kimby's! ok whatever.

a lot of ppl are going to run for council, which says a lot abt the effectiveness of their propoganda. i cant believe they spend so much time doing out videos just to get us to join council! well but it's nice and i enjoyed it. now i really cannot wait for the march hols to arrive. i need time off school to catch up on work, just slack and play soccer. i hope next term, i'll be ready for college. as in really ready.

2007-03-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

omg.

ring the alarm pls.

it's march! time flies like crazy, and now i've officially spent 2 months in college. *applause*

things have been touch-and-go, and it's amazing how everyday i return home and almost go straight to sleep. it's also amazing how my brain has so little disk space left to rmb the existence of homework.

but march, i promise to work harder and catch up on work. today is a good start because rite now i have my econs tutorial next to me and i have every intention to do it (",) ya but i've been saying this for quite long now i'm not sure if saying this in march makes a different.

well my nationals are coming up in 3 weeks and i really hope to go far this year. it's been 4 yrs since i won a national's medal, and i'm feeling super hungry this year. now did u just hear my stomach grumble? i need a chocolate.

ok bye.

2007-02-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

sorry to all the activists for environmental protection. i failed terribly in my part to save the Earth so that our future generations can still enjoy the same quality of life as us. YA RITE! those preachers are hypocrites. well anyway, my flu has resulted in me using up tissue paper by the box! how many trees is that? oh man i must have killed thousands of trees to blow nose. aww i contribute to global warming. how sad.

i've spent most of today and yesterday sleeping, besides trng in the morning ystd, dinner last nite (lao yu sheng) and trying to read Beloved. it was a highly unsuccessful attempt because i kpet slipping into dreamworld and covered only 70 pages after 3 hrs. ok, maybe 2 hrs of the 3hrs i was not awake, but hey i still have the book in my hands for 3 hrs so at least i did TRY.

anyway after trying to organize my academic life, i realised that a lot of things.

firstly, my bag is unnecessarily heavy because i have not done filing since the start of school. my file is now so fat it is dying of obesity. high-cholesterol diet. most from matthew quek's histroy notes. how wise were the words of ms heng when she said filing was a good habit. damn i shld have listen!

my grp ILP presentation is still untouched. i dunno anything abt maths. i have 2 lit texts to try to finish reading ASAP. my history notes are collecting dust somewhere deep in my file.

ok this week i promise i'll TRY to catch up.

2007-02-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

here's why CT session is boring. ok, sorry for being redundant there, but ya:

- which normal person wld put CT session as the last period on a friday? i mean ure tryin to teach us civics, something we all really really wld like to learn ar? just when everyone is looking forward to the end of the week u put something as anal-retentive as CT right at the end.

- they talk abt stuff we dun care abt and they leave the lights on when they do it. maybe if they turn off the lights i wldnt complain so much because then i cld really spend the whole time slping. rite now we have numerous dogs scanning the auditorium for slping beauties to get their reward from their masters.

today they were talking abt wad SAW? Social Awareness Week? how can this activity be a "week" thing when it's launched on a friday? weekend is tmr which means it's a one day thing? which makes it wad? Social Awareness Day. SAD. i can come up with good acronyms.

i'm really sorry.

2007-02-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

i dun really like chinese new year. it's boring. it's boring. and it's boring. why does it last for so long when christmas is only one day? man, speak of imbalance, that is one right from the start.

i've been collecting ang baos. i haven't open them. i feel sleepy all day for two days. i'm waiting for amazing race all stars to start. i'm eating too much BAK GUA. i have flu. flu makes my eyes itchh. i hate flu.

argh super incoherent. i wanna watch dreamgirl.

take it slow.

2007-02-11T15:33:00.000+08:00

i'm loving nelly furtado, listening to her day and night. her music makes me go soft, her voice freezes my heart. nono, not those Maneater or Promiscuous Girl song, those make me get up and feel high. and i love her videos too. omg. NELLY FURTADO NELLY FURTADO! she shld come to singapore for tour i swear i'll be there at her concert!

say it right!

2007-02-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky
twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are!

2007-02-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

twinkle twinkle little stars
how i wonder what you are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are :D

2007-02-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

when soccer is the only refuge.

i'm burning in this hell.

2007-01-31T23:17:00.000+08:00

All hail the kingdom of TomYam for their incredible sportsmanship shown towards us. Thank you for making the poor referee feel like a lost child in the shopping center, standing at the field waiting for u to return. Credit also goes to these ppl for making me wait 15 mins for a penalty to be taken.

Crazy for this girl - Evan and Jaron
Would you look at her
She looks at me
Shes got me thinking about her constantly
But she dont know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if shes figured out
Im crazy for this girl

2007-01-28T15:30:00.007+08:00

ole! the kallang roar is back! haha though Hwa Chong soccer team had to bring it all the way to Chijmes.

i somehow think we were idiots, well for 2 reasons. firstly we were all naive enough to think that we could stil get tickets at the gate after all the hype abt it being the last game against Malaysia at the National Stadium before it is torn down to make way for some sports complex which in the end would only end up as some terrorists target. and secondly, all of us only paid for a drink (u know being teens and our financial capabilities, we ALL went for the cheapest stuff there) and made the restaurant at CHIJMES ours, making so much noise and kinda spoiling the ambience of a romantic dinner for the angmohs. i mean seriously, at the car park were parked 7 LARMOGHINIS, and we had over ten adolescent boys cheerring at those cool place for what? oh Singapore soccer team.

haha but in the end we had quite some fun seeing our MAMAland bet malaysia. sigh but i really wished we were at the stadium in the rain cause i specially wore red ystd to PAINT the stadium red. :(

but anyway after the IMF-WB thing singapore hosted last yr, we now have another mega hosting to do. this time to a couple of thousands tranny? haha ya from thailand! as we expect them to make their way down here to face off against singapore on wednesday. TO THOSE OLD MAN LOOKING TO GO LOOK FOR Chicks IN CHANGI this wednesday, i suggest try kallang stadium. ciao

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2007-01-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

i think hwa chong students are seriously paying far too much for school fees. for one, we don't get as much attention from the teachers as we used to get from say, SOW PEH YOKE KEOW or Ang lai chiang etc etc. and also the angmoh teachers at HP cost the most and yet we all pay the same. no but that's not the point. my point is that given that we pay $250 a month, i wldn't expect to see crap teachers around. there's this male teacher, they call him PANG's Dog, he seems to have nth better to do than to do lame things like walking around in the audi confiscating ppl's stuff just because ppl are looking at them. -.-

i think he has inferiority complex, that's why he needs to do such lame stuff to boost his own ego a little bit. pretending that he's some policeman on patrol should make idiots like him happy right? oh does he has an outstanding brother at home too that made him feel so inferior?

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class blog class blog!

2007-01-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

2007-01-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

woah school life is crazy. i'm really enjoying having to move around from venue to venue for our lessons, going to class bench to see if u have letters from ur angel/mortal and slacking at fishtank listening to idiots playing on the piano. wah! and i really enjoy paying all the funds hurhur. 10 bucks for this fund and then another 10 bucks the next day for another fund and i still need to feed my angel and mortals with chocolate. and then there's the alternate days of running 9 km, which leaving me feeling like i just played zombie mortal more than anything else. it always leaves me feeling so shag i'm usually in bed by the time i finish my dinner. and i have no more time for my private, sacred activity, just too tired- FUCK! oops. pun not intended there.

well anyway, i'll be an idiot today by predicting an arsenal win over man u tmr. so i'll see all those crying man u fans on monday in school :D

2007-01-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

even when school proper has not started, i'm already feeling really tired. everyday i come home i just wanna sleep, except last night when i specially stayed up to watch the highlights of the game that Arsenal owned the shit out of Liverpool.

anyway i think teh chee siong is cool. he's like a funner Ng Seaw Choon. And i'm starting to feel my form teacher is really nothing but a slightly smarter version of laurang and a dumber version of foo yang yann. lol.

oh and i think this blog http://bonnipink.livejournal.com/38504.html#cutid1 is really cool. has some really nice pics of wargames yesterday. i really dunno how this girl managed to snap those pic, but there's one of me, the first one. haha. and it looks nice :)

2007-01-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

Ares! omg Arts seems fun. i got the shock of my life when i found out that i got changed from a11 to a10. and even more so when i found out that jiaxin got into hp. :D good stuff happening.

but thankfully my class really looked fun. and we have 06a13 as our senior class because 07a10 is the first ever a10 and that means we're gonna have cool seniors from 06a13 and also a class bench for our own. with seniors like jian yang, ruiyi, yeekai and all the other fun idiots in my senior class, arts is really looking bright. and some more i have samuel in my class. high possibility the soccer capt and vice capt nxt yr wld be coming frm my class ;)

anyway if i enjoy myself in arts for these 3 months, i probably wld not want to apply for Hp in march anymore. firstly, i feel like i wld have more motivation to do well and work hard in arts than in HP, where, in the company of all the GEPers, i wld probably develop severe inferiority complex and see myself go in a downward spiral.

and also, if i'm really doing well in arts, i guess there is really no point in changing my environment.

ar... for now, i'll just have fun in my time in ares (fuck! i keep typing ARSE when i try to type ARES) and help them kick some ass this yr :)